Relationships. The word that could bring you up like you're in the heaven, happy go lucky, or can even bring you down , as if you're in hell, torturing you badly. Just hours ago, i was texting someone who was somehow important to me. She just broken off with her boyfriend and as a friend, i feel kind of worried for her that she might do foolish things and etc. Rationally, i'm trying my very best to make her feel better, but deep down, i know whatever i replied to her makes no difference to her emotions. I feel so useless , really. I always talk, im always the nosiest among my friends and etc, but how come when a person feels down, i just can't find the right word to make them feel better? sigh, i really dont know.
Relationships. The word that i've been feared of, especially with such a family and past relationships experiences. Recently, actually it's been months, that i got myself eyed onto a guy. Friends who are close to me should know who i'm talking about, and always encourages me to confess. But luckily i didn't , because i realised.....he doesn't like me back. It's like, if i confessed, and he really does not like me, i think both of us will be in a awkward situation. And especially when i'm close with him now, i hope that my confession won't affect our friendship. Plus, i realised that i wasnt able to accept relationships yet. Most people should know that my relationships are usually short lived. Or i could probably say, out of all my ex boyfs, 6 of them did not last with me for more than a month, and guess what? i was the one who broke them all off. Honestly, i'm afraid if i really confessed and we got tgt, im scared that this might happen to me, will it? Not only this, my last relationship, it has been a reminder to me, until now, it's been reminding me constantly. I know all guys are not the same, and not all guys will do the same thing like what he did, but im really afraid the same thing will happen. What can i do , seriously? Should i really go and confess, or just remain with him as friends? I let go of a chance already, i don't want to let go of it another time, if chances arises.
Tell me what to do, please?
Relationships, is just such a chore......
Sigh,
Huijuns.
