Hai peepos. Here to blog after few months of not touching this blog. Not sure if anybody still do read this, but if you do, hi and thanks for reading ;)
Came upon this particular post at facebook yesterday and a sudden thought just to come and share my opinions here.
So....
What is happiness?
If you really followed me on facebook, you would actually realised that i do always talk about being happy. especially for my dp's captions.
Why, you ask?
To me, being happy is the most important thing in life, after all, who doesn't want to be happy? Many of you may know i came from a broken family, but that didnt really stop me from being happy.
What is happiness to me?
In the past, happiness always meant that ;
- I managed to buy something i WANT, not NEED.
- It is when i have money, because i feel more secured that way.
- Whenever i receive a reply from him, be it few hours, few days later etc. Because talking to him means more than everything to me.
- When i scored good grades for my tests/exams, and go around showing off, without considering other people's feelings .
- When i have friends around me, be it fake friends, or true friends.
- When i'm happy more than anybody was .
& many more.... but..this are the mains .
But now, i realised that i wasn't happy at all after thinking back.
Even if i got something i want and not need, so what? I only be happy for that while, and after that throw it aside. It's just materialistic happiness...
Even though i have money, but so what? They couldnt buy me real happiness, real friends, etc..
Even if he bothered to reply, so what? After a while, he'll just ignore me again, and be like our friendship today - totally strangers.
Even if i scored good grades and showed off, so what? People will hate me for what i've did.
Even if i have friends around me, especially fake friends, so what? They are not true friends, and i will be more unhappy because of that.
Even if im happy than anybody was, so what? Its just my own happiness and i'm so selfish that i didnt wanted to share. So, even if im happy, SERIOUSLY SO WHAT?
I really realised how lonely and unhappy i am after all these thoughts. But that wont beat me down, because i'm lucky i still have my true friends with me. I still have my family who will stand by me and adore me. I'm really thankful for those.
Simple things i do like texting my father "I love you" or kissing him on the cheek makes him happy.. And when he's happy, i'm definitely happy too.
We often neglect the happiness we'll have just because of the materialistic happiness we always want and hope to get. We always forget about how much our parents care and provide for us just to keep us healthy and happy, but will never forget how they used to hit us, made us unhappy.
I'm not saying i'm a good daughter, but i really want to be one, at least for my father. He worked hard enough, it's time for me to return the happiness back to him. I dont want to wait till it's too late.
I'm not trying to teach a lesson here or what, but i really think that in life, what matters more than being happy and seeing the people around you happy?
I've thought through, and i want to change. So i'm here to talk about my opinions. You readers may read through and think it's all bullshit, but to me, i really dont care. I just want to be happy, and make my loved ones happy too, before it's too late. Because you dont know when they might leave you too...
Huijuns.
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